love (me)

loving’s only easy when it’s not me
loving’s only easy when they don’t choose you
god this would be so much easier if i was
not

one two three four
shedeclaredathumbwar
lay your thumb there on my chest and twist my heart and let me rest
restrestrestrest
god i’m going to fail this test
testtesttesttest
i just don’t want you to go
gogogogo
godiloveyoupleaseloveme

immanence transcendence effervescence iridescence
and i’m dancing in the moonlight with the stars
i’m singing as i’m writing cos my heart is so delighted
i’m so glad i feel this way but it’s just for now

because i know
that i’ll lose
we all checkmate eventually

one two three four
ideclareathumbwar
lay your thumb there on my chest and twist my heart and let me rest
fivesixseveneight
who is he-she me-we me?

i just
don’t
know
where the fuck
i
am

so i’ll do what i always do
i
will
always
fucking
run
from this shit

cos i
don’t
know
what to do?

come here. listen here. please just listen to my thoughts.
have you ever kissed an angel in the stars?
have you ever been so frightened
that your heart soared past the sky and
your soul was just as numb as it was before?

this shit’s a song this shit’s an anthem this shit just definitely ain’t me
but what
the fuck
is?

me